New meds. Again.

So, like all other mental health patients in the UK (I assume) my psychiatrist has decided that throwing yet more pills at me will make my problems go away.    So now I… Continue reading

Just had my first panic attack in a few days. You wouldn’t think I’ve been dealing with this for 6 months.

So, this panic caught me off guard, normally it’s because I have to go out, or because I’ve tried to go in the garden or something. But this was different. I just all… Continue reading

I’ve almost conquered sleep again!

So, for the first time in a long time, I’ve had an almost full night’s sleep. I woke up once, but I refused to get up, and fell asleep quite quickly afterwards.  … Continue reading

What I might do when I get better…

Ok, so I know I’m not supposed to be worrying myself about what I’m going to do with myself after I get better, just focusing on actually GETTING better, but I’ve started thinking… Continue reading

My forehead hurts.

So, as yesterday’s little poem stated, yesterday, I was angry.   But I was not angry and stupid, well, not COMPLETELY stupid.   I needed to hurt, I needed to feel something other… Continue reading

Today, I am angry… (A short poem)

Today, I am angry and I don’t know why. I want to shout and scream and punch and cry. I want to bleed. I want to feel pain. I want to feel anything… Continue reading

Am I in the wrong here?

This may not be as well written as my other posts. I’ve been awake since just after 2am and it’s now approaching 9pm, I’m very very tired. I see my girlfriend most days,… Continue reading

HI again, I’ve been told I should write, so here goes.

I’m going to start by saying sorry. I know it’s only a few of you, but I did get some followers after my initial splurge onto this blog, and then I went quiet.… Continue reading

Once again, I’ve woken up more tired than I went to sleep.

I don’t know how to describe this, sleep does not evade me, I can fall asleep almost anywhere and at almost any time (unless I’m really having a stress). But more and more… Continue reading

Last Night…

I don’t know why, or what triggered me. But last night, I couldn’t stand being out of my room. It started to get really bad at round 5pm, I went downstairs to help… Continue reading